Working fulltime

So I have been and since I started this blog when I wasn't, there has been a sharp drop off in posts. Not that I haven't been thinking and even writing. I just haven't gotten around to posting.
So much delayed, here are some of the things I have been musing on in the last two months..

In early Jan I was about to turn 32,

Not a particularly landmark age except that since 16 was a HUGE year for me, I have for a long time looked forward to the point when the events of that year were more than half my lifetime ago. Obviously still a few months to go but getting there. Soon I will have been a vegetarian and a NZer longer than I have been anything else and for more than half my life.
Anyway, despite the fact that with age I appear to be putting on weight, I tried on one of my dresses today and it was completely too tight across my hips and thighs, life ain't too bad.
In fact, even if life sometimes sucks, I have the consolation that at least I am not 18 anymore, or even 21.
This feeling of relief is occassioned by my just having read part of the journal I kept then. I was re-reading some of these archives and it got me thinking about my old journals. So I dug the first one out, the one that I started the week before I left home to go to University.
Good god! I am and am not that person anymore. I wouldn't react quite the same now, but since I did then, I felt it all come flooding back. I managed about a month, skipped forward to the end and some of the things I wrote about the diasterous affair I had at 21 and then had to give up.
DEPRESSING, and thank god, OVER.
I truly don't care if I never fit into that dress again, it really is worth it just not to be that screwed up!


Dairy induced motivational issues...
In the 3rd week of February I was having them, so I was been thinking about consitutional issues instead. Well Waitangi Day had just past and I had been reading Chris Trotter's column in that Friday's ODT. He was joining in the whole Maori sovereignty/separatist debate with a deep sense of white paranoia. Suggesting that we are heading for a constitutional crisis reminiscent of the one that precipitated the American Civil War. That has to rate up there with Winston Peter's idea that immigration was heading us towards a Balkan style ethnic conflict.
Anyway, I have to ask, do we live in a deeply troubled society and I have just failed to notice or have these people just completely lost their sense of proportion?
I have to admit to being almost completely apathetic on the whole Treaty issue, 'cause it has almost no impact on my life and I can't really foresee it ever having much. (Not that as a good public servant I am not commited to honouring the principles of partnership.) However after reading stuff about how American fundamentalist christians have used their constitution to exempt them from child neglect laws and the whole 'it is my right to own an Uzi thing' I am begining to suspect that the very last thing NZ should do is enshrine things, what ever they may be, into some sort of sacroscant law.